I am not supermom.

I think this blog may fool people sometimes, although anyone who knows me personally will probably laugh at the thought of anyone thinking that I have it all together. There are a lot of areas where I struggle, but the absolute BIGGEST struggle in life for me is being pregnant. And guess what? I am.

I am only 6 weeks along and in the throws of sickness, just like my last one. With Pac-Man I had no sickness just didn’t enjoy being prego at all. With Krash I was so sick at one point I didn’t leave my house for over 3 weeks, and probably showered a total of 3 times during that. It was awful.

We had plans to try to wait and make the news public closer to 12 weeks, with the hopes that sickness wouldn’t overtake me, but it set in about 4 days ago and is hitting hard. So, the news is out. I hesitated about putting the news on this blog since it is more public, but I realized that I have gotten to know many of you through our online times together, I felt like I wouldn’t be honest if I hid it. We’re the kind of people who put it all out there anyway. So no matter what God’s plan is for the next few weeks or months, we’re ready.

I am having a hard time even getting out of bed, (praise my wonderful husband-he is awesome), let alone homeschooling, or taking any photos. The blog might lay dormant for a few weeks depending on how this sickness moves forward. I do plan to put up the Tot School Mr Linky on Sunday’s at least, even if I don’t have many photos to show!

I feel much like a failure, like a wimp, and I don’t like it. We have barely gotten through 1 day of school lessons in 3 days, and most of that was done with Pac sitting beside me while I lay on my bed. Anyone else been through this? I don’t know how we are going to school at all until this lifts a bit. And Krash, oh my-that’s a whole nother battle, just keeping up with him.

We go to Disney World with my parents on Saturday, a trip I have been looking forward to for a long time. I am praying God will give me enough of a break in the sickness to be able to enjoy moments with my boys.

Oh and to answer the question I know many of you are dying to ask…Yes this baby was planned…by God. ha ha!